June 29th, 2007
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January 11th, 2007
melancholy state.. POSTED AT 02:14 PM in wala lang No matter how I run from things.. I know that those that I run from will catch up with me sooner or later... .. I'm running away from my thesis..coz I hate every bit of it.. ..running away from people who think they know better but they actually don't.. ..running away from crappy thoughts of feeling alone and being misunderstood.. ..running away frm ppl who think they know me but they actually know nothin of my past hardships to even dictate on what I should do or not do.. ..running away from my pride.. ..running away from ME.. ..running away from all the problems and addictions... ..running away.. hoping to find someone who will actually listen to me, and never interrupt while I pour out my thoughts, may it be senseless or not.. My friend sent me a very noteworthy message today, and it contained this: “A thing that I pondered today… We want a friend who’s supportive in every way. However I’ve seen that a lot of anger worsened because we’re being supported with this. Maybe a true friend will be someone who will let you wallow for a while and after that rationalize your actions; not meaning to influence your decision but to let you see a different perspective; and just listen to you.” Through tough times, I realized that It has been a long time since I asked for someone to be there for me, because I’ve always known that HE would always be there when I needed someone to talk to. But the one thing that falls back on me is when he and I fall apart.. I am usually left with no one else to turn to for comfort. I only have pillows to wash away my tears. Yes, I do have my family and friends, but there will always be that lingering reality that they’re not always going to be available for me nor would they always be fit to be trusted with my problems. The ones I've trusted, they're no longer around.. everything else seemed to have changed through time..and it's something that's hard to get by.. I guess it’s true, what they say about having friends… you may have a lot right now, but how many can you actually consider to be real and true? ********************************************************************************************************** I miss friends from school. That time in my life would be the most missed at present. But deep in my heart, there have been a lot of people then that I seldom see nor talk to now. All those casual, random moments through text messaging were all the time we spent together. The falling out process will always be painful but I guess it makes you a better person for seeing things in a different perspective. A time to move on. I just hope I'd be more willing to meet new people, and start trusting again. To Friends I’ve been missing a lot, and been meaning to catch up with…To those I’ve been with through a lot of hardships and happy moments, through our younger years… I will always miss how we were and how we talked over crazy and mundane things in life… how we enjoyed.. how we spent time.. TO US... how I wish I could turn things back the way it was before.. innocent… care-free… AND To those I’ve hurt and who’ve hurt me back.. I hope we can call it quits… I want to go on living with a clean conscience… and a happy heart. Let's move on..........and start finding people who we can really be friends with, sincerely. Life is too short to be wasted on such petty things. A Dedication to those.....who've left an imprint in me.. My Heart By Paramore I am finding out that maybe I was low, that I've fallen down and I can't do this alone Stay with me.. This is what I need from you Sing us a song and we'll sing back to you We could sing our own, but what would it be without you? I am nothing now and it's been so long since I've heard a sound, a sound of This time I will be listening Sing us a song and we'll sing back to you (we'll sing it back to you) We could sing our own, but what would it be without you? This heart it beats, beats for only you This heart it beats, beats for only you, oh This heart it beats, beats for only you My heart, it's yours This heart it beats, beats for only you My heart, it's yours (my heart, it beats for you) This heart it beats, beats for only you My heart, it's yours This heart it beats, beats for only you My heart, it's yours My heart is yours My heart, it's yours My heart is... Listening to: my heart by Paramore |
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November 7th, 2006
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October 7th, 2006
Numbers are just... POSTED AT 09:41 AM in wala lang I'd like to spare myself.. (and those who will probably pass-by and see this entry and read it) a long entry.. I'll try, so here goes. Despite the insecurities, the sensitivity and the sometimes low-self-esteem.. I thrive hard to eat up my fears.. pushing myself to do more and be more of what I expect of myself.. I'm planning to visit more, soon.. I know that the time i lost the people I cared about, was the time I knew I was growing up... and started to understand the world around me. I just want to thank those who have inspired me this much.. this sorta recognition piece is for all of you... mwah mwah!
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December 29th, 2005
enhancing relationships POSTED AT 03:46 AM in wala lang TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation. A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB.Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is." Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB". ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- NO POINTING FINGERS A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?" The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you." We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too. -------------------------------- CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS? A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television." There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins. ----------------------------------------------------- NO OVERPOWERING Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character." It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness. It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations.. ----------------------------------------- RIGHT SPEECH There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party. A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me.Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you." Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed. ----------- PERSONAL PERCEPTION Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey. Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman." The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders. It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future. Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear.. ----------------------------------------------------------------- BE PATIENT This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy,I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide. Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever. |
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December 18th, 2005
What is a Quality Christmas? POSTED AT 01:27 PM in wala lang We were given three definitions of Quality from three different quality experts. We were expected to choose only one guru and I chose W. Edward Deming for this definition, “Quality is the predictable degree of uniformity and dependability, at low costs and suitable to the market.” I started to think about his meaning of quality and how I would associate my thoughts of a Quality Christmas to it. Counting from now, Christmas is only 7 days from now. There are a lot of nice things out in the market especially that Christmas is coming a few days from now. You can’t help but adore all the beautiful objects displayed on stores and racks. You see a lot of items that will make you remember a few people, and you would want to buy these things for them this Christmas. But it’s not always that practical to buy what is there or what is readily available for the picking. Not everything you see in malls, small stores, or advertisements on television will always fit your budget. Saddening but that’s the truth. Not everyone is privileged with so much money but the thought of having enough to survive will do. They also say that Christmas is for kids; and as you grow-up you lose the very excitement of celebrating it. You’ve probably outgrown the insecurities of not having something that your sibling received for Christmas before or something you've asked from your parents that they weren’t able to get for you because they lacked the funding for it. You might probably hear a few people say “Geez, I might have to spend a few more pesos again now that Christmas is here once more!” Some people make Christmas sound like a burden and an obligation. Some people just forget what Christmas means nowadays for some of these reasons. Some people just forget how Christmas is supposed to be seen and celebrated. Christmas isn’t just about what kind of gift you bought or how much time you spent accounting for the long list of expenses you’ve made just to give presents for numerous nieces, nephews or godchildren. ‘Quality is the predictable degree of uniformity and dependability’, which will make you think that Christmas is the Gift of love that you can offer your family and friends. Christmas is an opportunity to be blessed, knowing that you have a family where you can be one and the same; a family you can always be with and depend to for all times. There’s an absolute moment given to you, for you to grasp in your heart and soul all the days of your life. It is something extraordinary that never leaves your being. ‘…at low costs and suitable to the market’, I know that I didn’t want to spend too much money on gifts because I needed to save and be more practical. Instead of losing the spirit of Christmas, I made several presents of my own. Most of my friends will be receiving personalized presents this Christmas, like accessories. You can always try making specially made gifts for family and friends. I think it will be more appreciated because it came straight from you. And if I were given a gift made by my siblings, a family member, or a friend, I’d be really touched to be given only one of its kind. And I say, through the celebration of Christ’s birthday, the quality of a personalized gift from the people you love surpasses all requirements! And even if we’re under an economic crisis, it’s still heart-warming to see house’s fully equipped with lights and lanterns, despite the possible high electricity bill to come, or when kids roam and sing you Christmas carols you used to sing when you were young.
If Christ wasn’t born, we would still be wandering the ends of the world, continuously sinning. So, despite all the problems in the world, let’s all remember that we’ll always have a Quality Christmas with us; a time where Christ, our savior celebrates his day of birth with all mankind; and where we’re given the moment to share his special day with the people we love most. That’s something worth cherishing for. (804 words) Feeling: peaceful |
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November 21st, 2005
4 SALE! iPod Shuffle! POSTED AT 09:23 AM in wala lang
Original iPod Shuffle (bought in the US) , slightly used (1 month old). |
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November 16th, 2005
a year older..haha! POSTED AT 02:10 PM in wala lang Salamat sa lahat ng family and friends kong di nakalimot bumati sakin kahapon . . . MARAMING SALAMAT at mas pinaligaya nyo ang aking kaarawan... ika nga, the older you get....the wiser you become....hmmmm.... ...and i've yet to find out if it's true...JOKE!
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October 31st, 2005
To My Dad POSTED AT 01:44 PM Ever since my parents got separated, it was my dad who I stayed with. I chose to be with him. My life when I was still a kid was a big conflict but I was still appreciative because despite and in spite of life's hardships, I got to be with my father all the time. Our life together was balanced in some way. He was like any father who looked after its offspring(s). I remember, when I was still in grade school, I would study real hard just to top my classes. I was able to do that for 3-4 years straight. And for each quarter I topped, my dad would bring me to this toy shop near my school; and there, I got the chance to pick any toy I wanted. As a kid, it made someone like me feel happy, excited, and more than usually vigorous and alive. It was definitely an exhilarating experience. And even if I lost my place on the top ranking in class, he never failed to show me that I was still the best. With good enough grades, he still showered me with gifts from different places he's been to. What ever it was that happened, with achievements or with none, he never forgot me. He was also the type who'd treat me out to Wendy's for hamburger-fries-and-frosty or bring me to Iceberg's for an ice cream treat. He brought me to different places and to his office where he'd proudly show me off to his friends. He spoiled me with a lot of things too. Dad has always been kind. What Back then, dancing in front of my dad was one of the many things I did to make him happy. He loved watching the Ginebra games with his office mates and watching me be his cheerleader. He showed proudness with the talent I possessed. Besides that, I also made him letters and gifts using things that I would usually find piled up at home; and even if my writing and drawings were hard to comprehend, he appreciated the thought of it all. I will never forget our shopping and food sprees, our arcade/fiesta carnival/SM moments, our out-of-town trips to Zambales & Baguio. I remember how he would drop-by and bring me lunch to school, and how he filled my water jug with sprite or coke, knowing that it was against the rules to drink softdrinks in school. He didn't care so much, as long as it made me happy. Even if we weren't so well off in status, he always tried his best to give me everything I wanted and needed. I also had the best birthday parties too because he planned it detail by detail --- unforgettable. He was always there for me, through school activities as well. He watched me dance in school presentations and complimented me for being good at what I do. He'd usually bring me ‘pasalubong’ after work or after going to church. He was the just the best! One memory of him would be a time when I was sick; and I went against my father's rule. Instead of resting, I played around with my cousins while they splashed water in the small pool. My pajamas obviously got wet and my father surprisingly came home early from work. He became furious at me. He had me sent up to my room. He taught me a lesson and he hit me with his belt. It was a painful experience and it made me cry. I later on heard from the caretaker that my father cried after doing that to me. He was guilty for doing so and promised himself never to hurt me again. Through my growing up years with my dad, whenever I'd do something wrong, he'd just temporarily give me the cold shoulder or the silent treatment. He'd later on talk about certain things with me. If I did make wrong decisions, he never did think of hitting me again. He kept his word just as he promised. What I loved most about my dad was that he was generous just like his mom. He helped out our relatives whenever they needed it. He bought small things for those that he loved even though there was no particular occasion. He was very thoughtful in every way possible. He was kind & I admired him for that. My Dad, even with his frail looking stature, dark-toned skin, and tired eyes, he showed strength in him through every walk he made. He's gone through so much in his life and did so many sacrifices for others. He quit his job then just so he could take care of his mother; got through so many heartaches and rejections; and finally meeting the last woman he'd ever love. He'll do just about anything for the sake of making a loved one feel contentment. Although daddy didn't live to see further of my achievements, my changes, my problems regarding matters of the heart, I know he'd always be with me as I experience more through the years. I have loved my father with all my life. He was there through the twelve years that he lived to share with my brother and me. He was the greatest father, the greatest son, the greatest admirer, the greatest teacher, and the greatest friend I could ever thank God for. He was the best thing that has ever happened in my life; and I would ever be so grateful that he helped shape the person I have become. A god-fearing, generous and loving person, that's my father!
*In loving memory of Tomas Flores --- February 02, 1960 - February 19, 1995* Feeling: contemplative |
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